"Confused" by Truth
Have you ever had a discussion where the truth seemed more confusing than the lie? If you have, you know that awkward, discombobulating feeling that arises because something you have believed for an extended period of time—even a lifetime—has proven to be false. It can be quite overwhelming.
It is natural that your instinctive response is defensive, even hostile. "Who do you think you are?" and "How dare you judge me?" are phrases on the tip of your tongue. In the heat of the moment, you might even rationalize, "That can't be right." Should you utterly reject the "preposterous idea" while in your "confused" state of mind or should you recognize this feeling of "confusion" as a mental flag that moves you to openly reconsider a conviction, no matter how deeply held it might be?
We often become emotionally attached to what we believe and it is rarely pleasant to be proven wrong. This explains the initial defensive response. However, the real quality of a heart is seen after the initial emotional roller coaster ride ends. Will we stay "confused" by the truth or will we embrace it, giving up the lie?
We can fear and procrastinate like Felix (Acts 24:24-25). We can shoot the messenger, as we reject "his truth" and "gnash at him with our teeth"
(Acts 7:51-60). We can be moved by every wind of doctrine (Eph. 4:14). We can even remain in a perpetual state of "confusion" and have God reinforce "our lie" (2 Thess. 2:11-12)! On the other hand, we can simply receive the "love of the truth" (2 Thess. 2:9-10).
Momentary confusion at having a conviction disproven is understandable. Choosing to reject the truth or remain "confused" is simply inexcusable. What ever you choose, remember, your response will demonstrate the quality of your heart (cf. Matt. 13:18-23).